Have you ever been in a crowded room and felt utterly alone? Feeling close but so far from people all around you. Wishing someone would just touch your soul and give you comfort that only CHRIST can give. Well, I have a confession. I am lonely. I have been lonely for a while now.
Living on an island, serving the Lord full-time, spouse and two gorgeous children, and a new loving church family, how could I possibly be lonely. You see, I miss my family. I grew up in a typical Hispanic home where EVERYONE is in everyone’s business. Mom, dad, Eta, and three sisters, I always had someone within reach. Now, I feel as if the cord had been cut. I thought I was independent, and if you ask my family they will say I was always doing my own thing, but the cord to my heart was still attached. No longer.
My day to day life is exciting and vibrant. The Lord is moving and stretching me. My husband and I have been challenged and experienced victories on the daily, but I no longer am surrounded by my family to share it all with. Facetime calls are inadequate. They help, but cannot replace sitting down at the table talking, laughing, crying, and sharing.
Reality is life goes on. My families world did not end when I left. No, they continue to move forward as they should. My life did not end. Rather, it became crammed with full-time mommy duties.
Nevertheless, in my loneliness, sadness, and pain I heard a whisper, “I am here.” My heart shuddered! He is here. The voice continued, “I want to be your friend.” I lost it. How could I be so blind. My Jesus has been with me this whole time. I was not alone. How could I be when He promised me, “He will never leave me or forsake me?”
I am learning to share my day with my Savior. He loves me so much and died so that we could be together forever. How could I not be His friend? Yes, He took me away from it all, so He could woo me. He has drawn me to a place of absolute dependence on Him. Funny thing is, I would not have it any other way. He alone is all I need.
Abraham believed God, and it was accounted to him for righteousness. And he was called the friend of God. James 2:23
I want the same to be said about me. That I was called His friend!
In Him,
Darla
